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I've been drinking a lot of liquid the past few weeks, lots and lots of water. Other people keep buying groceries for the house, so finding something healthy has been a challenge. I have to keep my internet unplugged for my husband, because he's alway on the XBoxLive, and my computer interupts his feed. I've cut myself off from alot of my old friends, because yes, I've been struggling with my husband, and instead of telling me how to change, my friends have told me to just leave until he comes to his senses. What man has come to his senses before it's too late? I don't want to reach "too late." I want to fix this NOW. And we're reaching a healthier point. It's a process, like everything else is. I'm learning how to be a better housewife, and he's learning to be a more considerate husband. We despretly want to stay together forever. We'd like to be happy, too. We've been a couple for five years, this July. We've been married 2 & 1/2. Our anniversery is Nov. 20.

Well, every once in a while I'll exercise, too, to compliment my lots of water. I haven't been hungry, so I've been eating two regular meals a day, which isn't ideal for weight loss. The scale proves this: 257.4 last Thursday. I'm going to put that down as my weekly weigh in, even though I'm down a little over a pound.

A few things have been coming up in front of me, that I started to address. 1)My husband needs to know that I'm doing something to A)Better our relationship, B)Better our home, or C)Better myself. 2) I really want to have childeren. This need has been getting ridiculisly pressing. 3) The house does need to be packed and cleaned. 4) If I want to feel out of my funk where I'm infront of a screen all day, I need to get moving. 5) My youthfullness isn't going to last forever. How long can I look my age the way I never take care of my body? 6) Every household needs a financial cusion.

So, here's where the purpose comes in. My husband and I are in love and devoted to each other. Before we start trying for childeren, there are a few things we need to work on. I need to learn to keep a house clean, so as to not burden my childeren the way my parents burdened me. We need that financial cusion. I want to be an ideal weight before we start trying. I want to have our vow renewal ceremony (we eloped-I want a wedding, alright?) before we have childeren, so that I can feel I didn't shack up with a boyfriend (umm...okay , I kinda did...I kinda didn't...it's a little complicated. No pregnancy was involved.) So, my solution-we're moving anyway, so this will give me a chance to start fresh. I will keep our house clean for a year; that should instill a house keeping habit. I will lose 78 pounds in the next 365 days. This will happen because I will exercise daily, increasing the intensity every week, and I will walk to the grocery every day to pick up that day's fruits and vegitables. I will follow my sparkpeople meal plan. I can't do that now because I live in the country, but I will be very close to a grocery very soon. I will get a part time job in town, and start saving our cusion. My husband and I are actively working on our marriage, and will be seeking help from a trusted source. So, in 365 days, we will decide a yea or nea on my wish: to renew our vows on Nov. 20, 2011, our fourth aniversery, and from there, start our family.

Honestly, I think there is no better motivation than a deadline, for me.

As for the practice- I've been learning how to eat healthier with unhealthy foods. Oh, and I've set my standard exercise routine: 15 minute warm up from 1.5 mph to 3 mph. 85 minutes at 3 mph. 20 minute cool down from 3 mph to 1 mph.

I'm back. I'm not a new me, but I've changed my outlook just a little. I'm figuring out what's important to me. I feel a little different.