I swore I was going to bed 4 hours ago.

Posted by admin Saturday, January 22, 2011 0 komentar

But I hadn't eaten dinner...I had gone....umm...I ate snack 1 at 3:40, worked 4:00 until 7:30, got home at 8:10, ate lunch at 8:30...so 4 hours 50 minutes between snack and meals. I was going to eat between 7:30 and 8:00, but my next manager didn't show up, so we were sent home. I had to redo my meal plans, because I didn't eat at work. Oh, I just got hired at McDonalds, I'm NOT looking foward to figuring out meals that land in all my nutrition catagories: 1)cals 2)carbs 3)fat 4)protien 5)calcium 6)sodium 7)fiber 8)potassium. I know, it may seem like a lot to worry about for such a little equation- burn more calories than you eat equals weight loss. But that little equation doesn't seem to cut it. I need to look at a bigger picture to get results. Besides, I feel better when I meet my goals in all these things. Any whose, I went too long without eating, I didn't have money to stop and grab something. So I've been STARVING since about 8:15. At least, that's what my mind keeps telling me, whether it's right or wrong. I was going to whine that my husband wouldn't make me dinner even though I always make his. I have to carefully plan every little thing I eat, and he goes to work, eats breakfast, lunch, and a snack there, and comes home to a nice hot meal. I was going to whine, and then he made dinner without me asking.

It even fit right into my diet. Yippie!

Work was alright, the touch screen hates me. Even my trainer was baffled by the fact that no matter how hard, soft, full contact, or pointedly I punch those buttons, the blasted thing won't put in orders!!! It's hard to pick up your speed when the stupid thing won't let you do a single thing...

Oh, I got my monthly friend!!! Oh, that may seem weird to point out, but it's been 70 days since my last one: I was 42 days late (6 weeks). No, I wasn't pregnant. I'm guessing, between the anxiety, the overdoing the Ativan, and not properly eating (because I wasn't properly logging), it ran away. Now that I'm getting healthy, my body is acting healthy too! I'm praying, I'm in fellowship, I'm walking, I'm watering (um..drinking water..), I'm eating exactly what I'm supposed to, I'm working...I'm doing what a young woman should. I'm proud.

Another thing to be proud of: On Tuesday, I was 264.4. I may have weighed more last week, my scale was broken at the time. Usually, I weigh myself daily (when I wake up, after I use the bathroom) to remind myself not to be lax, not to slack off. Well, today I weighed 261.4! I got bored and weighed myself again after I got home, figuring I'd be all swollen with daily water retention...261.0...Oh, I remember not to get excited...but it sure felt nice, even for a temporary high! All because I'm back...and may I remind those of you who read my "Kicked Behind" blog, I'm heaviest right now, on my time of month. So . I'm doing something right, for right now.