allaboutwomen

Hi. I'm tired. Last nights sleep that I was bragging about? It was the effect of Tylonal PM. Or maybe just that I was happy. Today, I spent all day infront of the computer, playing around on this website and my favorite comicstrip's website, fborfw.com. Then I played a video game. So now, I can't sleep. I should have exercised. I should have done something outside between the rainstorms (I swear I have daily inpacted SAD). I should have done homework and housework! But no. And now, I'm so wired, that though I can't manuver a mouse, or walk in a strait line, I also can't sleep. I'm following that advice: if you can't sleep, leave your bed, so that you don't associate it with wakefulness.

Well, I'm going to leave now. I'm sure being in a bright room with a bright computer screen isn't going to help. I booted up my computer to write my Social Psychology teacher that it's not safe for me to drive in this condition. I've tried it before: nearly killed my passenger. I wouldn't have a passenger this time, but there's a river on that side of the car, so that probably wouldn't be good either.

I ate way, way too much today, didn't even write it down, not sure if I remember what I ate.

What am I doing to myself? What is this stress doing to my body? The overeating doing to my brain?

I've been thinking about volenteering over the summer, instead of finding full time work. With the new house and the new roomie/tenant, finances should be easier. It might make me happier, more focused, more driven. Or if not make, bring out what strength I have in those qualities. Maybe it will help me find what I want to do with my life after college. I thought I wanted to be a drama teacher in a deaf highschool. Now, of course I'm not sure.

10 days until 3rd missed period. I miss insurance.